its about 2:40am now . this is last night's post :D hehe .
came back from the childaid concert . bought one of nathan's CDs ! weets ~ haas . bought it for a good cause . the pocket money fund. so i guess its worth it.
nathanNATHANnathan. he's only 15 years old ! mingMINGming . she's 13 !
they sing like pros . seriously. real nice . this concert, showcasing the rising talents of singapore (: i remember the concert last year being more exhilerating. haha =x oh wells. it was nice t0o (: ohkay . i name all the performers . LOL .
justina ravi. abigail sin. janani sridhar. cheung ting yung&ting wai chua bi ru. sarah pineda. michelle sugiarto. dominic wong. NATHAN HARTONO :D MING BRIDGES :D ethan ong. samuel ang. jin yu jia. rachel chua. nafa young talent assemble ! dance item by : ACS primary & serangoon JC .
they were all under 19 . but they perform like its nothing. reaally talented peeps (:
haas . hm . i have the booklet with all their details and pics . if i can find a way to take and upload the pics . i will :D hehe .
anyways . i finally changed the skin ! been doing it all night . lalalas ~ changed the slideshow t0o . but i dont know when it will publish here (: YAY . finally got that out of the way . wahaha .
yeaapps . anyways . jiamin they all are back from china le . shaun&jon are back from thai mission . WELCOME BACK ! haha :D jiamin was funny. was happy to get her sms . saying they come back le . then .. she told me she was hungry and that they were going to eat swenson . diaooo ~ ('.' ") haas . well . at least it shows she's back . LOL .
also . CHERIE XU SHI HUI . you must make your decision . and make it asap. either hide your sufferings and live a fake life. and NOT let yourself get t0o attached emotionally. or you straight up CONFRONT it (: and your conscience will be clear. hahas . whatever it is . i'll be here . remember ! one more year :D and thanks for being there for me too. really (:
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was caught by surprise when you suddenly talk to me again. yeah . memories sprang up once again. but . the feelings which were once there. no longer arose. my heart no longer skipped a beat. nor did any sign of tears fall from my eyes . after two long hard years. am i finally over my first love ? YAY =D wahaha. i am 99.9% sure that i have no feelings for you anymore . lalalas ~ thats good enough for me. at least for now. but should i take the risk by bringing you back into my life by accepting your offer ? hm . i dont think i should.
haha . quite abit of mixed feelings tonight. cant quite put them into words. ohkay .. maybe i could if i wasnt so lazy again tonight =x hehe .
6:23 am
lalala . then this is today's post . haha .
well . JULIA TAY LI JUN- is back from camp . haa . and the china peeps are coming back tonight t0o. it was funny actually. i didnt expect marcus to feel the same way about their return as me. maybe it wasnt as big an impact as we thought.
lalaa . attempted to make breakfast today . haha . total disaster . and i was only working with cereal =x
hm . now only about .. 2:30 ? so not much to post . haha . watched longest yard just now (:
ohOHoh . finally got some of the india pics from sheela le . waiting to get the rest from azureen and shoban . trying to contact cheryl and aimin ? haha . i'll try to upload them either in a post . or in the slideshow xD hopefully before i go thailand =D lalalas ~
5:27 am
didnt get to use com last night. so im using this morning . ahhaa .
hm . while waiting for sheela they all to come. ling and i decided to clean up our room. everything's all thrown around . so we decided to recycle the old shoe boxes and stuuff , and try to make boxes (: went through websites for ideas. in the end, we used cereal boxes. havent quite finished it though =x
yeah . then sheela they all come le . haa . practically HALF the india peeps (: since shoban and i didnt settle on what to do . was kinda sian-ish. they came . sat in the room while sheela helped me with the photos . they eat&talk&eat&talk . haha . then we actually planned on watching brokeback mountain. but .. after the first few seconds .. everyone was like SIAN . so we watched chicken little instead . they didnt actually stay long . and soon left sheela and me (:
we watched aquamarine. then actually planned on going to shalini's house to skate . but mum didnt allow. i dont know . then shalini got kinda irritated with me . it felt like she totally didnt care about me at all larhs . as long as she got what she wanted . then when my mum didnt allow , then she get angry . i dont know .
hm . its been awhile since sheela and i talked le . she arhs .. must talk some sense into her . i know her intenti0ns mean well . but what if they DONT go according to what she planned ? i dont want her to get hurt over that kuku again can ):
yeaah . spent the night chatting with peilin when she suddenly called me. yeaapps , opened yet another new light for me. took the opportunity to go downstairs to the exercise corner. havent been there in awhile. only managed to see the moon and like .. two stars ? thats good enough . thanks for being so understanding (: i hope i can help youu t0o .
Monday, November 27, 2006,3:55 pm
HUMAN MONOPOLY.
woke up this morning and realised . havent send the blazer for dry cleaning ! AAHH . so had to go around to search for one. all .. take about one week ? and like . 9 bucks =\ so expensive can )): haiis . im sorry mum. sorry dad ): then .. late for sermon . dad and mum didnt even go . cos they were helping me go around to look for the dry cleaning place . gosh . im such troublesome daughter ):
well. today's sermon. its been awhile again . it was about . how to get into the kingdom of heaven ? and about what it means. i cant really remember the details =x mostly from philippians, galatians, luke . haha . about the truth. and faith (: kinda reminded me of what ben told me yesterday about the sermon at chc . he quoted pastor phil . "the greatest pain you can give God is DOUBT, the greatest pleasure you can give God is FAITH" yeah . something to think about (:
hm . yeapps . then went to sentosa with julia's cell group. they're really a fun group of people (: then they started lauging about VIBRATOR . diao . and jeremy didnt know what it was . haha . DID YOU KNOW . a bungalow in sentosa .. the cheapest one costs 9million ?! and that .. have to pay thousand plus .. to let 32 people visit you a year ?? oh my eff-ing gosh . well . at least thats what jeremy says . haha . quite shocking i guess . those RICH people get to stay there i guess . haah .
a day full of surprises for julia . haha .
hm . was quite fun actually. HUMAN MONOPOLY. more like a mix between amazing race and monopoly . haas . running here and there. and joy's & my pants were so eff-ing loose . hee . sorry . am kinda lazy to write all the details.
well. the cell didnt manage to win . but jason is going to treat them swensons anyways . hah . they're all really nice . reaally (:
hm . then we went off to harbourfront to eat dinner . again . they kept laughing about the kuku vibrator thingy . thanks to nicole . lol . then jenna had to go off early. julia and talked&talked .
on the way home, decided to sun bian take my homework from junjie. so met him at the mrt station. then he very good . pei me home. hahas . hmm .. its needless to say. things feel different now. we can talk more openly ? though i was practically talking the whole way =\ cos when i shh . he also dont talk . haha . honestly, i dont know what the road ahead will be like. but for now, its the beginning of a new friendship ?
die le . reaally very lazy today =x lalalas ~ i write the details some other time ba . if i dont forget . HEHE . sorry my dear bloggie .
Sunday, November 26, 2006,12:25 pm
END OF STORY.
spent the whole day at home actually. been awhile since i had a slackish day . body still aching . haas .
this race we were running together. finally time to rest ba . im trying to convince myself that it is better to let go. he deserves better, much better. andd . i guess we both should have the chance to find true love (: there's still much ahead of us. only time will tell yea ?
i guess dad tried to cheer me up by letting me play around and cook dinner . hahas . quite messy in the kitchen . made a pasta omelette ! =D its like .. the only thing i know how to make . lol . reminds me of home econs with songhua last year . haha . it was funn . but had to clean up t0o . lol . i think dad was just lazy . but it did help (:
& WHATS THE EFF-ING USE OF CUTTING YOURSELF ? no . it doesnt help at all. no . it definitely wont make you feel better. no . it wont solve your current situation. no . it doesnt gain sympathy. i seriously cant stand it. its not the first time i watched a friend go through this. seeing this time and time again. and for what ? to make yourself feel worse than you already do ? pleasee . dont do this anymore . think about it. dont bury yourself from reality. it isnt going to disappear on its own. face it, overcome it . strive to rid of it once and for all, doesnt that sound like a better solution ? everything that happens in life, it happens for a reason, be it good or bad. either way, you have to get through it. if its a mistake, face it, learn from it. if its an achievement, strive to improve. i know its easier said than done, but at least try. dont give up.
ohkay , maybe i dont know what im talking about. in life, we will all face problems one way or another. there's no question about that. but, its not about how who has the bigger problem, its what we do ABOUT it . any kuku can sit there, complaining about the hurdles in front of him. but it takes something to stand up and do something about it.
hm . hope that dad lets me go with julia tomorrow . but i dont know if i should go back to coa . aiya .. i dont know .
also, my dear daughter afiqah . thanks for being such a pillar of strength for me (: a new path is opening up for us, and we are going to walk down it together (: its nice to know that even when we are in different directions, we can still turn around and see each other's footprints. long story . haha . hope that can go for the facial with you ! wahaha =DD
cherie's also going off to china soon . forr like .. 20 days ? GULPS .
Wednesday, November 22, 2006,3:03 pm
BACK FROM INDIA . my gosh. much has happened . students from malaysia, singapore and india. a bond shared for 18 days. the laughs. the cries . the takeaways (:
CDLS'o6 . now have new lights regarding community development & leadership .
AIYA ! i left my personal reflection book in the delhi airport -_-" i really cant standd my carelessness . inside that book . all the memories are . my deepest most inner thoughts . the contacts . the personal messages ): i havent even read them . i really wanted to break into tears ):
have to thank shuni, jiamin, marcus, junjie . laoba . everyone who tried to help me . hm . but whats done is done yea . i dont want to drown myself in regrets . must make the most of it (: i guess . this is God sending me a big message . DONT BE SUCH A CARELESS FOOL YIWEN . ohkay God . i get it . thanks =D haas .
to be honest . i was quite reluctant to leave india . i didnt want to end that dream . things seemed so carefree . so comfortable . waking up every morning , the sights, the sounds (: i will miss it all . this trip really opened by eyes to the other side .
ohkay ba . too much to write now . shuni told me to blog all the days down . maybe when i come back from st john island ba (:
that reminds me . JIAMIN . SHUNI LAOGONG . we come, they go . they're awaiting their flight to shanghai now . haiis . hope that they too will have memories to take back (: i cant really imagine life in singapore without them . ALL THE BEST DARLINGS ! =DD
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